“YOU CAN PRETEND”
You got the news today
News that I existed
You argued that it wasn’t true
But You Know in your Heart that it is…
The stories you are hearing hit too close to home and ring too close to home to deny.
Yet, you shut down
Closed yourself off
And then tainted others around you
Convincing them to do the same.
And for what Reasons?
To Protect Yourself?
Fear of the Unknown?
Void of loving others?
You can Pretend I don’t Exist
But I do
And I am not going Away.
I am a Person, a Human Being with Feelings and Hurts that
This Discovery of a Family I Never Knew has aroused
It has created a fire in my belly to learn more and to seek those that belong to me
They belong in my life and their blood flows through my veins.
Your denial of me only stokes the fire more!
Driving me to Reality
Pushing me to meet others that have never been allowed into my Life
Encouraging me to learn My Truth and to help others Learn Theirs
You Can Pretend
But Facts are Stubborn things, and they don’t Lie
Keep Pretending
It Only makes me Stronger in my Quest and for that “I Thank You”
I am adopted and would NEVER force myself on my biological family when they express their feelings of not wanting to get to know me, over and over again. If they don’t want you, move on with your life. They will NEVER accept you and you’re delusional to expect ANYTHING from your bio family. You sound threatening when you say, “you won’t go away.” That will never get them to come around. Just do yourself a favor and move on. You probably need to seek Counseling to be able to let it go.
Thank you Lyn for your comment and insight. I agree with you and I am not forcing myself onto anyone. Fortunately, there are many family members that have chosen to meet me and build a relationship. Those that expressed their feelings of not wanting to meet me have NEVER heard from me again but they may feel differently in the future. Either way I am fine. What I do disagree with is that they will NEVER accept me or the situation we have all been placed in due to this Discovery. I am not delusional in any of this but have a solid and healthy outlook on all of it. I am sorry your circumstances are what they are and you have the right to feel the way you do. I just don’t feel that way. As far as Counseling goes I don’t find the idea of seeking counseling as an insult. In fact, I thank you for your concern about my well being. I do have a trauma counselor that I seek help and advice from weekly and I totally agree with you. Most people learning the things we do about our biological family certainly can cause many of us to seek help in maneuvering this new adventure in life. Again thank you so much for you comments. It means the world to me to have the thoughts of others even if we must agree to disagree on some points. Take Care! With Love, Lezlee